Like having a bla bla bla barf or watch youtube videos all day— As in I can go on a great hike with my dad, talk about politics and adult things that I usually dont want to face because I am just still too busy wrapped up in nonsense, wreaking in peaceful smiles until I come back to the wicked evils of reality; as in all I really want to do lately is study rivers, maps, rocks and crystals; as in I dont know what the hell I am going to teach these preschool students; as in I dont even particularly like kids, what am I supposed to tell the parents?; as in making these stupid posts because drawing isnt going anywhere and feeling bad afterwards because Id like to have posts that uplift or inspire, or impart some bits of entertainment at least; as in reading books about QCD for silly reasons; as in wanting a cat to read me a fairy tale to sleep: a tale with an agate, a labyrinth, a temple, a sea, a home on the road, a coyote, wings, talking organs; as in All I am is a tall six year old girl with braided, gray unicorn hairs that fakes sick to stay home— an American bitch with a load of work to be done.
